Monday, December 25, 2006

hallo everyone. merry christmas!!

kinda pissed with myself today!! someone slap me the next time i put my waller in the butt pocket man. totally got squashed now i have all the dumb marks made by the coins and the heavy mass that sat on it. urgh. stupid nic tan. stupid nic tan's backside.

anyway. really wanna thank those who wished me a belated birthday!! better late than never i guess. hehe.

sarah
iris
OGLs

cant remember the rest. after 3 hours of monopoly at settlers cafe today, my brain cells were like totally fried. just had this feeling of loneliness thru out the whole day la. its like for the first time on a big day event i didnt bring any frens or family members. just felt so shi bai. and looks like i cant get many for tmr either cus the entire world seems so busy. after that went to joo chiat, got really tired. went to aunts place, saw all my cousins with their boyfriends and girlfriends, just had that feeling of sadness inside of me. in the end settled on playing this dumb tennis sort of game on dominic's game console which apparently had no brand.

think i m getting diarrhoea, been having the runs, maybe its all that extra chilli powder. already have headache and a slight fever. we ll see how it goes tmr. if i do get a fren however, i shall drag myself there even if my limbs are falling off. haha. otherwise, just pure depression la. despite all the council stuff i have learnt and studying, just felt on a spiritual aspect and a personal aspect, a relational aspect, havent achieved much this year, its been such a waste. sighh. feel so shi bai!! someone i always feel that the stuff i do drags all of u down lo, its like i wasnt around for 2 weeks and u guys suddenly all got so fired up. oh wells. talk about ke xin.

really no mood la. when i think of the real reason for this festive season. i think about all those people out there, who dun even know why they are celebrating christmas. i think of one of my best frens, leading a purposely, directionless life. i just feel so burdened but at the same time, i m so pissed with myself cus i never did anything about it, sigh, and right now, with everyone on my phone book already fully booked, just alittle too late...

shi bai!

pissed with the dumbass called me! cant take care of a figgin wallet. cant bring a single friend to church! cant stick to convitions u make! dumbass! arghhhhhh!

|cowpoo| 12:30 AM|

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